Ouch. This is becoming painfully relatable by each episode.
This week we’ve got Kurumi getting a share of the spotlight, something she (and Chigusa) sorely needs, otherwise her role will end up blending too much in the background. They didn’t really dwell on her worries too much, yet still manages to somewhat straighten out her brief character arc which is great. Although, her having an older sister who’s apparently an indirect source of her anxieties felt like it came from the left field given how sudden her introduction was. But in a sense, her personality as we’ve seen from previous episodes lend credence to why she would feel this way despite not showing until now any indication that there’s something troubling her — she’s just there, hovering in the middle, neither feeling overly obsessed nor lacking in enthusiasm during their club activities. And being in the middle is exactly where you don’t want to find yourself in.
That’s where I’m at right now, and it’s one of the most unpleasant sensation that you could ever feel in a lifetime. Back when my existential anxiety was at full swing, I described the feeling as something like ‘floating on a sea in the middle of nowhere’. I just drift aimlessly like a hapless flotsam, often straining my neck to see where I’m heading, if there’s anything in that direction or just another expanse of nothingness. It’s equal parts calming and dreadful; calming because opportunities are waiting for me out there somewhere, dreadful because what if there’s none? If there’s anything that I learned from my bitter ruminations, it’s that the older I get, the heavier the burden of deciding on a choice becomes, just like that frantic moment we see from movies when someone is picking (oftentimes flat-out guessing) which wire to cut when defusing a time bomb. Obviously, Kurumi’s not in any way as anxiety-ridden as I am now since she still has a lot of years ahead of her, so Chigusa’s advise to take it slowly very much applies to her situation, whereas I’m already at the middle of my 24th year and I don’t have anything to brag about yet, much less to even call a passion. I tried to look for that one thing I can be crazy about but they just ended up becoming passing caprices: mountain climbing, film photography, writing fiction, playing the guitar. It’s as if I’m trying to take a picture of my calling (whatever that is), only for the developed film to show the subject blurred, out of focus, or over/underexposed. Suffice to say, none of which really, really stuck with me for various reasons, but in a way, they may as well be helping me narrow down my choices.
I tried to make friends… which should honestly be a natural thing for a normal person to do. Having someone to share your hobbies with could easily bolster your enthusiasm towards it, especially when you have supportive peers like Kurumi’s. I don’t know, but I feel like what makes the colors in Irozuku so beautiful and captivating isn’t entirely because they’re colorful or anything, but because they’re suffused with this sentimental value and meaning given by the people surrounding Hitomi. I mean, I just found out that their names can pretty much be translated into a color. Kurumi is walnut, Chigusa is light greenish-blue, Asagi is light blue, Kohaku is amber, wherein Yuito and Shou’s family names are bluish and gold correspondingly. That’s according to Google, so take it as you will.
In any case, it’s very rewarding to see how far Hitomi has grown over just a span of 7 episodes. I haven’t been this glad for an anime character since 3-gatsu aired, though this feeling of relief also comes with an impending dilemma. Hitomi is slowly but surely fitting in with the group and it’s evident how comfortable she is now with everyone around, however, the closer they become, the harder it is for her to go back into the future… unless Irozuku decides to steer clear from this kind of ending which is okay too. They initially made us believe time magic is irreversible and then invalidated it by laying out a theory that they can simply make a stronger magic to return Hitomi from where she came from. And now from the looks of it, there doesn’t seem to be any incentive for her (at least not yet) to do just that. We don’t exactly know how life fared for her before she went Steins;Gate, but she’d be lying if she said she isn’t having fun with her new friends notwithstanding the inconveniences from their low-tech era. I’m still willing to bet she’ll decide to go back to the future, though. That gold fish certainly seems… fishy, and mayhaps if it’s really an entity or a magical being that gives and takes colors, it could go back into the future which is potentially what could make Hitomi decide to return to her original whereabouts, sorta like chasing rainbows quite literally.
- They sure like to use that shot of a faucet for some reason.
- Good Lord, I realized I just talked about myself for half of this post.
- One reason why I’m not doing film photography anymore is because it’s too expensive for my budget especially for a beginner who’s doing a lot of trial and error. I remember wasting my first roll of film due to a dumb mistake I did when winding the film — there goes some nice pictures and $5 of money. Heck, it might even save you more in the long run to buy a Leica that already costs an arm and a leg! Another is because I don’t like going out, I like to stay at home cooped up in my room. Some people are just like that, let ’em be.
- Man, I’m really loving this. While the melodrama itself can be said as a rehash of tropes that have been done before, it still has a very intriguing setting/premise that allows it to be its own flavor.